Grades Delayed

Unfortunately, my submission of your grades will be delayed. I had hoped to submit them yesterday, but I didn’t finish. I am hoping to submit them by noon or early afternoon today. As you may know, I have had a ten-day dispute with the university that has led to my resignation as of today (strictly speaking as of 9 am, but I suppose delayed now by a few hours). I also had computer problems yesterday, and have suffered a number of bereavements in rapid succession. So those things have slowed me down, but the grades will get done today. It will be literally the last thing I do at Felician.

I don’t know if the grades will be visible later today or on Monday. But don’t be alarmed by the delay. They’re coming.

4 thoughts on “Grades Delayed

  1. Sooooooo sorry to hear this. You were an amazing professor that knew how to keep a class entertained AND educated at the same time. I even registered for one of your classes next semester. Sad to see Felician suffering a great loss. Thanks for an intriguing and mind-opening semester! Wish you the best of luck.

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  2. This is such sad news. I’m really sorry to hear this Dr. Khawaja. You were one of the very few best professors we had at Felician. You’ll be terribly missed. I’m not saying that lightly at all. I hope for the best for you and your future career.

    I don’t know what happened with you and the university but they severely screwed up by losing you.

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    • Thank you very much. This is a very secret confession that I’ll make only to you: I actually enjoyed teaching very much. You’d have to, to teach the 8:15 slot for something like twelve years in a row.

      As for what happened, don’t expect a straight answer from Felician’s administration. Non-answers are the only ones they know how to give. And with the veiled threat of litigation pointed at me–the most pompous party to the dispute has threatened a defamation lawsuit–they probably feel confident that the truth won’t come out on my end, either. But they’re wrong. I’ll choose the place, time, and manner, but the truth will come out.

      When you listen to the leaders of that university preaching to you about this or that ideal that they claim to hold dear, just apply to them the lessons I’ve taught you in the classes you’ve had with me: critical thought, ethical reasoning, research, common sense, maybe a bit of math. Ask yourself how well they stand up to scrutiny–whether their claims add up or fall apart. Can they reason in a straight line? Can they speak in a straightforward way? Can they be real and honest with you, or is everything always some act that they’re dialing in from somewhere? Do they go silent when you need them to say something? Will they not shut the fuck up when you want them to listen?

      That’s a sample of the questions to ask. Come up with some questions of your own. There’s a world of answers out there. You’d be amazed at what they are.

      I left Felician after a ten-day standoff with its administration. They were doing something wrong–really wrong–and I gave them an ultimatum: either change course, or else I’ll walk off the job. They didn’t change course. They doubled down. So I did your grades, which is something I owed you, and I walked.

      Maybe they thought I was bluffing. Maybe they think I still am. Maybe they thought they could intimidate or entice me back. I don’t know, and I don’t care. The fact is, I had no job waiting for me, no safety net. I have no income now, no health insurance, etc. Not a fun place to be, but I don’t regret it. It was a clear-cut decision for me.

      They’re the ones who have something to figure out. What exactly have they accomplished? And why? In a way, walking off the job was the greatest class I ever taught. It poses this question: Why would a 51 year old professor just decide, suddenly, to throw away a $60,000 salary and a nice benefit package (health, dental, retirement, life insurance), throw them at his fucking employers, and walk off the job without a plan or a destination in mind except to get away? Why would someone leave a safe job on Zoom in the middle of a pandemic, and run the risk of exposing himself to COVID, if he could easily have stayed at that safe job without creating so much trouble for himself? Was he just crazy? Or were things so fucked up that he had no other choice?

      Consider all possible answers to those questions. It could be that I am crazy. But it could be that I’m not. What does it mean for you if I’m not? Too bad we can’t discuss that one “next time.”


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